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Protection Spells
04:03
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I was following a feeling
I always had so much to prove
Never stopped to look around me
Until I had a lot to lose
I was waiting for the summer
I was been hiding in plain sight `
If I have a heart of darkness
Can't I find a little light?
And I wanted to tell you
How I'm sorry for the way I let you down
And I thought I could reach you
But there is no way to turn the tide around
Draw a map of my depression
And pull back the satellite
If I feel like half a person
Can I find a little light
To learn to love with total freedom
Is my heart’s ambition
Without need for validation
And without condition
I was moving in circles
Just to feel like I’m alright for someone else
And it’s taken a lifetime
But I’m learning how to know that for myself
Needed to walk away
To save myself
And sleep to dream of better days
I've been conjuring
Protection spells
To keep the ghosts away
I was following a feeling
I always had so much to prove
Never stopped to look around me
Until I had a lot to lose
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Dissociation Blues
03:08
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I was on my way back home
Tired of feeling so alone
And my dissociation blues
I don't even know what's true
If I was the darkest one
If I was the prodigal son
Doesn't mean I'm all wrong
Doesn't mean I don't belong
I was hiding since I was a child
And this storm was coming all the while
Ocean in a paper cup
Yeah I guess i fucked it up
Golden age that never came
Dreams that we let slip away
I thought I was born like that
Emotionally detached
Hiding all the evidence
Claiming it was self defense
Then the sky was falling from above
And I could see I hurt the ones I love
Solo (verse)
I'm so tired, I don't wanna fight
I just wanna feel like we're alright
Now the walls are closing in on me
this is not who i wanted to be
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3. |
Radioactive
03:47
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You were drawing a line
you were lost on the astral plane
you were out of your mind
and you feel like your love’s in vain
Now everything's strange
And you feel like a passenger
In the blood in your veins
And you're not who you thought you were
sometimes it feels
like you’re just hanging on
like you can’t make it back
and the good times are gone
and you’re biding your time
with the ghost in the hall
You’re asleep to yourself
and you’re nowhere at all
You were radioactive
You were out of control
Just fading away
In a fight for your soul
went away for a while
and the world feels so different now
and you’re starting again
you’re afraid that you don’t know how
And sometimes it feels
Like they cut you in half
Did your dream turn to dust?
Did you look back and laugh?
Will you come back to life?
Is the wolf at the door?
Could you be someone else?
Just a little bit more?
You were radioactive
And its taken its toll
But you’re learning to change
And to make yourself whole
It's a fight for your soul
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4. |
Real Love
04:19
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I don’t know if there’s silver lining
to this mess that we’ve been in
it feels like we’ve got our head underwater
and we’re trying to learn to swim
but I still believe our love is forever
it was written in the stars
if we had the chance to start things over
i’d see you for who you are
I was lost in my own world
and haunted by a memory
i just wanted you to know
that your love is safe with me
we were so young then
we didn’t know better
maybe there’s still time
build a new dream together
we’ve got a real love
sometimes it ain’t enough
no matter what it takes
i’m never giving up
I remember all we’ve been through together
i know we can’t go back again
sometimes i just want to feel like you want me
like you wanted me back then
we made our plans to see the world but we never got that far
one day you wake up feeling like you lost a part of who you are
we were so young then
we didn’t know better
maybe there’s still time
build a new dream together
we’ve got a real love
sometimes it ain’t enough
no matter what it takes
i’m never giving up
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5. |
Weightless
03:58
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Everything I thought I knew was wrong
I thought staying in between would prove I was strong
All it did was make me feel alone
Sinking like a stone
I needed to learn how to disarm
Weapons I was born with and the ones I took on
Fighting with the ones I love the most
Feeling like a ghost
I’m weightless if just for a moment
I sing just to know I’m alive
You’ve gotta walk through the fire that’s what it takes for a love to survive
I needed to learn how to surrender
To reckon with the damage I’ve done
I had to learn not to hide from the world
I had to learn not to run
It’s so hard to let things go
But maybe we could take it slow
I miss all the dreams we had
And I can’t make it on my own
Everything I thought I knew was wrong
I thought staying in between would prove I was strong
All it did was make me feel alone
Sinking like a stone
I needed to learn how to disarm
Weapons I was born with and the ones I took on
Fighting with the ones I love the most
Feeling like a ghost
I’m weightless if just for a moment
I sing just to know I’m alive
You’ve gotta walk through the fire that’s what it takes for a love to survive
I needed to learn how to surrender
To reckon with the damage I’ve done
I had to learn not to hide from the world
I had to learn not to run
It’s so hard to let things go
But maybe we could take it slow
I miss all the dreams we had
And I can’t make it on my own
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6. |
Family Name
03:38
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I’m weathering
the storm inside
it comes to life
when i close my eyes
these things that I’ve
been haunted by
don’t go away
even though i try
i never had
to learn to be
good on my own
ok with me
the mistakes I’ve made
and this psychic pain
is a legacy
in the family name
And I know I fucked it up
Feel like there’s no way back
Maybe it’s ok
I was walking on a wire
And everything fell apart
But I’m finding a new way
i’ll take my time
as the hour gets late
survive this loss
accept my fate
rise up again
find my friends
who I used to be
did I know you then?
I’ve never known
the way to be
good on my own
ok with me
the mistakes I’ve made
won’t be in vain
or a legacy
in the family name
And I know I fucked it up
Feel like there’s no way back
Maybe it’s ok?
I was walking on a wire
And everything fell apart
But I’m finding a new way
And there’s something in my heart
that needed to lose myself
Maybe it's ok?
I was walking on a wire
And everything fell apart
Now I’m finding a new way
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7. |
Harder to Pretend
03:22
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Is it getting darker now?
Do you think we’re running out of time?
Can we turn this thing around?
Is it just a moment down the line?
or a fatal flaw in our design?
Did somebody miss a warning sign?
Baby are you safe and sound?
Can I get a message home to you?
Are you going underground?
Are your biggest fears all coming true?
Do you think we're gonna make it through?
Can somebody tell me what to do?
(instro)
Is it getting harder to pretend?
Did you say goodbye to all your friends?
Will it ever be the same again?
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8. |
Solid Ground
03:27
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I needed time to walk alone
So I could find my own way home
If you don’t learn to heal yourself
You end up hurting someone else
I made my own creation myth
Trying to prove that I exist
An apparition in disguise
Looking through someone else’s eyes
I was afraid that if I let go of the story that I knew
Along the way I’d get so lost I can't find my way back to you
We had a way that worked before
It doesn't work for us anymore
If I can lay these weapons down
Then I could be your solid ground
If I could be that strong and kind
We'll find a better way in time
I know that we’ll be good again
We’ve got a love that never ends
The world will break your heart but we were born to see each other through
And after everything the only one i ever want is you
I never learned
To understand the things I felt
You stood by me
When I gave up on my self
I was afraid that if I let go of the story that I knew
Along the way I’d get so lost I can’t find my way back to you
The world will break your heart but we were born to see each other through
And after everything the only one i ever want is you
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9. |
Lowlands
04:07
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I said goodbye
To what I’d known
And to that high
And lonesome feeling
Into the night
Out on my own
Just trying to find
Some kind of healing
Wandering through the lowlands in my mind
I don’t know if I’ll be back this time
Those sleepless nights
And warning signs
I didn’t see
The storm was coming
Everything changed
I was afraid
All of the time
Then I was running
Through the lowlands far away from home
I know what you carried all alone
And I don't know
If I could ever make it up
To you
But there’s a light
That’s in your eyes
Makes me believe
Maybe there’s still time
And in the morning when we rise
We will be in
Some other skyline
And I don't know
If it will be this way forever
Sometimes I wonder how we ever got this far
I know its hard
But I can feel it getting better
You've gotta learn to be enough
Just as you are
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10. |
We Rise From Fire
03:17
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arrive from always
we rise from fire
and i can feel the spirit leaving through the wires
it was a summer
to start anew
there were so many changes we were going through
and looking back
on what we lost
felt like a river that we’d never get across
A broken heart
A tidal wave
a list of things I failed to find the words to say
I lost my way
I tried so hard to not become the thing I hate
but it’s not too late
for me to show you
that I can see you
arrive from always
we rise from fire
and i can feel the spirit leaving through the wires
it was a summer
to start anew
there were so many changes we were going through
when you are born
into a war
you learn to fight and don’t know what you’re fighting for
it took so long
for me to see
That I was nothing like the man I hoped to be
I lost my way
I tried so hard to not become the thing I hate
but it’s not too late
for me to show you
that I can see you
You were holding us together
I was living in a trance
Now I’m haunted by the feeling
Maybe this is our last chance
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Singer Songwriter Brian Sendrowitz has been crafting heartfelt, literate pop songs as Beat Radio since 2005.
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